I'm still dealing with this. I veer between feeling very disturbed, just plain sad and indifferent. The LJ life is a very strange thing, or perhaps it is death that is strange? I never met Kia and I'm sure that makes a difference. Although relationships online can be very intense, even without meeting up. And then what to do? In the real world, you'd send flowers to the family and go to the funeral but there is no format on LJ. Maybe there will be some day. I keep thinking of that first fic I beta'ed for Kia, and then about one or two later ones I read. It's hard to think she was so dismissive about her own abilities. How old was she?