Kia

I just read that Kia died last night. Can someone who knows please tell me what happened because I have no idea, and I'd really like to know. Someone left an anonymous message in my journal yesterday, and I can't help wondering if it was her.

Kia - just stuff I remember

Ok, so I 'met' Kia at the end of 2002, when I was very new to Livejournal, and constantly spamming in the vague hope the someone would read some of this stuff. She was kind enough to give me feedback for this bizarre sort of fic I wrote about Peter Cook and Dudley Moore, and she introduced me to trianne.

I've never been much of a one for IM, but I probably chatted to Kia on it as much as anyone. We both had this terrible habit, at the time, of staying up until about 4am, talking rubbish and saying "I'm going to bed now!" I'm quite tempted to post the entire transcript of the chat we had in which we decided to be boring pirates going, "Lots of water round here, ain't there?" "Arr. Powerful lot of water." Er, but I won't, because those sorts of things are only vastly entertaining to the people involved, which is kind of the point of them.

I actually met Kia, along with trianne and neverwhere, at Collectormania 3 at Milton Keynes. I'd never met fandom people before, and was obviously convinced they thought I was boring, cos I am a bit. I thought Kia was so sweet and nice. Afterwards, I realised she'd been virtually convulsed with shyness. She got to meet Billy Boyd, and phone me up tell me and they all screamed at me down my mobile, which I thought was really funny. But for some reason she was incredibly embarrassed about the fact that she'd done it, and kept on beating herself up about it until I told her to shut up.

She was frustrating because she thought she was stupid, and stubbornly refused to listen to people when they patiently pointed out that she had a degree in Astrophysics or whatever it was. She also thought she was talentless, was ridiculously easily hurt by things people said, and (again) stubbornly refused to listen when people patiently pointed out the many, many, many people who loved the stuff she wrote. Just the other day, someone recced one of her fics on crack_van. I don't know if she got to see that - probably not.

There's probably a lot more to say, but I seem to have run out of steam. I was very fond of her, and her death seems terribly unfair.