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sheldrake ([personal profile] tadorna) wrote2004-09-08 10:55 am
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Subject line courtesy of a bit of spam I received this morning. I thought it should be preserved for posterity. Spam poetry! It's the new rap.

Ha. I just remembered something today. In the mid 80s I learnt BASIC computer programming from a kiddies' Usborne book. I designed a programme that drew a square. Ah, nostalgia. Maybe I should have carried on down that route - I could be Bill Gates now! And instead of having fun on the internet you'd all be drawing squares and ENJOYING IT DAMN YOU!!!

I am feeling slightly odd today. This started last night, about 9-ish: every few minutes or so I get a small wave of disorientation. I'm not quite sure how to describe it. It's a slight disturbance of vision, headachey, almost dizziness. It feels a bit like having flu without the flu, or extreme tiredness, or momentary drunkenness. I don't feel ill in the slightest, just odd. I'm wondering whether it might be side effects from coming off antidepressants (which I just did a few days ago). I've also started having extremely bizarre and vivid dreams again, which I had when I started taking them, but I've never felt anything like this disorientation before. Hopefully it'll just go away on its own soon.

I've been compiling stuff for a new website I want to make of arty-type-stuff-wot-i-have-done. It's not meant to be any kind of even vaguely professional showcase of my work, because the thought depresses me too much. Instead I want it to be a place where you can go and click on stuff and it'll be fun and nice to look at. So I'm including random doodles and sketchbook work as well as images from installations and what-have-you. Keeps me off the streets anyway. I might spam you with bits of it later.

[identity profile] llaras.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
I had the same thing happen to me when I went off my antidepressants. It did get better, but I'm still having an odd moment or two and it's been a couple of weeks now.

Also, make sure you stay hydrated. I've had the same symptoms from not drinking enough water too.

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, that's really good to know!

*feels reassured*
*goes to drink some water*

[identity profile] depptart.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
Ooooh, arty-type-stuff-wot-you-have-done! Looking forward to that.

Loved the picture of you from the other day. :-)

Hope you're feeling better soon.

[identity profile] badgermonkey.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 09:00 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe I should have carried on down that route - I could be Bill Gates now! And instead of having fun on the internet you'd all be drawing squares and ENJOYING IT DAMN YOU!!!

10 PRINT "HA"
20 GOTO 10

[identity profile] depptart.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 09:02 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, and where can I find your aphid story?

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
Having played around with some stuff today, I'd say ... don't hold your breath. Heh.

But thanks and thanks. :)

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
The first one is here and the 'sequel' is posted in Lobelia's journal, here. :)

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah! WOOHOO!

[identity profile] yellow-oranges.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:40 am (UTC)(link)
ooh! arty stuff and sketches. I'm mad about sketches and doodles.
Feel better shel!

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:40 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, go for it, QQ!

And thanks. :)

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:40 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, I was too quick for you... :) heheh.

[identity profile] yellow-oranges.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 10:40 am (UTC)(link)
whoops. LJ gone wonky!! ignore this.

[identity profile] shirecreature.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 12:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Could be the anti-depressants, I remember I had to stop taking them gradually, like every other day, then every 3rd day, etc., because of that kind of effect happening.

I also had that feeling after taking anti-histamines for too long, don't know if you take those as well.

Feel better soon!

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 12:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Just the ADs, and I've come off them gradually like the doctor said, but I suppose being without them at all must be a bit of a shock to the system. Hopefully will be better soon though. :)

[identity profile] novanumbernine.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 01:06 pm (UTC)(link)
i'd be interested in your arty exploits, dear shel (obviously!)

belated congrats on the new job, btw!!

n.x :)

I Aren't Nonymous

[identity profile] lugna-vatten.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
M'dear 'tis the pills, or rather the lack of them. When I came off them for a while a few years ago I got headrushes, disorientation (I felt like my feet were too far away from my head) and vivid, weird dreams. It'll go away.

Don't be afeared.

[identity profile] opheliaskiss.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 01:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I love arty-type stuff, so I'm looking forward to seeing that. :)

I hope you feel better soon.

XOXOXOX

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks! :) I bought that Quark book, btw - hopefully will stand me in good stead in the scaaaaary weeks to come. :)

I think I'm going to post some pics in here when I get round to scanning them in.

Re: I Aren't Nonymous

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 01:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, this is reassuring. I had assumed that's what it was, but it's good to have other people affirm it. It does feel very odd though!

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 01:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Cool! :) And thanks! And ... HI THERE!

[identity profile] nubeinchild.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah, its you turn to be jumped and snogged and squeed all over

i reall want to say how much i adored the story you wrote for the zine. i just captured me and iver read it over and over just because it was that good to me.

thank you for 'lodestone'

~~lonnie~~

[identity profile] sophrosyne31.livejournal.com 2004-09-10 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
no no you're not allowed to be having weird fever-flash shakiness, it's stalwarts like you i count on to stay stalwarty!

well, of course you're allowed. but i hope you feel better soon.

and i can't stand it any longer. where is your icon from? i have WRACKED BRAINS and cannot name it. my children's-book cred is defunct, after all. please enlighten me? and then watch me thwack my head against your very own screen, that's how hard i'll thwack it. *g*

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-11 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
Ha! I'm a stalwart! :)

My icon is the Small Olympian Bear from the Helen Oxenbury-illustrated edition of Edward Lear's The Quantle Wangle's Hat. Sadly, my copy seems to have disappeared for ever, but (stalwart that she is) dear [livejournal.com profile] lazlet scanned in the entire thing for me.

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-11 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Wahey! Thank you so much. This is my first bit of feedback for the zine story and I can't tell you how pleased I am that you read and enjoyed it. Very much appreciated indeed! :)

[identity profile] sophrosyne31.livejournal.com 2004-09-11 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
oh THE QUANGLE WANGLE!!

*spins down chute of memory vortex*

i am four years old.

i loved that book! the rhymes, the illustrations, the colours, the textures of everything. i was a happy synaesthetic child.

my aggrievement at having to be told what the book is is mitigated mightily by the fact that i've been reminded of a lovely book. :D

and yes, you are stalwart. anyone with a quangle wangle icon must be pretty doughty, i reckon!

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-11 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
i was a happy synaesthetic child.

Me too, heheh. Which reminds me. You were asking what people thought you looked like, and I was pondering this. I came to the conclusion that I haven't a clue, but I thought you might be blonde, because your username is mainly yellow.

anyone with a quangle wangle icon must be pretty doughty, i reckon!

I reckon, too. Which is why it would be wrong if you didn't have one. Here you go:



[identity profile] sophrosyne31.livejournal.com 2004-09-12 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
OH GOSH THANK YOU!! my very own quangle wangle frog!! he even has the same expression on my face as i do sometimes when i'm waiting for a bus.

*pats your fuzzy fellow and smiles froggy smile of contentment*

now, about the yellow. my username? i think i know what you mean. but i see it as indigo-ish, something darker... i was blonde as a child! but now am very emphatically dark. innit strange how clearly we imagine these things? especially hair colour. you're definitely blonde, maybe a dark buttery colour, straight hair, and with a face containing a mix of childish curves and very adult intelligence. how do i know this? well, i absolutely don't. in fact i don't even know where i'm channelling this from. i think i'll shut up now.

*froggy smile again*

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-19 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
Do comments have a use-by date after which it's silly to reply. Well anyway. It occurs to me that your username is only mostly yellow because it has a lot of yellow characters in it - two S's and a 3. However, the two O's also give it a dark blue note. There. Glad that's sorted.

Re: me - you're wrong about the blonde, but surprisingly accurate about the face (although I'm not sure about the adult intelligence bit *cough*). Anyway, if you want to check your accuracy, I posted a pic a while back, heheh.

[identity profile] sophrosyne31.livejournal.com 2004-09-20 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
i think old-post comments are one of life's underrated delights!

right. this synasthaesia of colour/letter/numeral - have you read nabokov's 'speak, memory' memoir of his childhood? he has a marvellous section on synasthaesia, and i do believe he ascribes colours to letter and numbers, and i almost believe he might have said (hazy memory) that 3 was very yellow. i think this because his colours matched mine, and so do yours. you're so right, S and 3 are yellow. i tend to think of 4 as quite solid, nine is definitely a muddy shade, i think 8 is maybe a blue. gosh i could go on all night like this.

you see we are as one. *g*

and oh your picture! you know, i have actually seen this, of course. but my imago of you was already fixed before, and thus confirmed. you do indeed look clever and curvy and omg sassy. I WAS ALMOST RIGHT ABOUT THE HAIR.

hehehheheh. *quangle wangles*

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-25 10:26 am (UTC)(link)
have you read nabokov's 'speak, memory' memoir of his childhood?

I have not, although I know of it. I must check it out.

Sadly we part company after S and 3, because for me, 4 is light blue, 9 is pink, 8 is a sort of faun. Nine, incidentally, is the same colour as Thursday.

I do love a conversation with a synaesthete! Recently I was in the car with my mum and dad, and my mum and I had this long, in depth debate about our colours, which I remember doing a lot when I was a child. My dad had absolutely no idea what we were on about.

[identity profile] sophrosyne31.livejournal.com 2004-09-26 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
you're so right about nine and thursday. thursday is also a right-hand day.

left hand associates include eight, yellow, and minor-scale music tones. i've always preferred my left side, it's so blue-sky and tastes like caramel (figuratively, this last).

i'm not convinced about nine being pink, though.

read the nabokov, by the way. it's magic.

[identity profile] sheldrake.livejournal.com 2004-09-30 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
A funny thing - most even numbers are female, and odd numbers male. The only exception to this is nine, which is female.